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[23 Oct 2006|01:56am] |
So I haven't looked at this website in over a year and was shocked to see that people still frequently post. And since my free time has increased tenfold since this presence in England, I figured I'd rejoin the club - at least for a few days.
I'm wrestling with this understandable inclination to summarize the past year of life, however, I feel it's better to keep it to a few random thoughts. Plus, I don't deserve the audience.
Now that I've been in the same place long enough, my wanderlust has been rekindled. I guess that's the way it will always be - when you're still you desire movement, and vise-versa. I'll detach myself completely and really leave next time.
I made some friends here, mostly Scandanavian, but I started some drama and now I think they hate me. It's alright, if they start something we can just bomb them. Who needs Denmark anyway?
I think I lost my dreams. I don't really want to be a filmmaker anymore. Ironically, I've never been more sure I could succeed. It seems pretty useless. I got "hired" to direct this script called "Living As Man and Wife," the hackneyed tale of a cross dresser with multiple personality disorder. We'll see how that goes; I won't fail you, Britain.
When I get home I'm going to collect every rejection letter I've ever received and make some sort of art.
Most films, even the critically acclaimed, are absolute shit.
I just bought a return trip plane ticket to Ireland for 30 dollars. Why can't America be more like Europe?
It's so boring being American. Why can't I be from Iceland or Fiji or something? Whenever there's an event here that I have to wear a nametag with my country, it's such a dissappointment to everyone to see another "USA." Being from the US is more boring here than being from England. Today I got ridiculed through the speaker system of my apartment - two English guys rang my door and asked me of my political persuasions via intercom. All I can give to people is first hand knowledge of Taco Bell and Frat parties.
I started another script. It's shit. I'm already done.
I started another novel. It's shit. I'm already done.
Hah, why did I write this? I'll never check this again.
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[31 May 2005|03:07pm] |
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holy shit. it's livejournal.
this entry, whether submitted or not is definitely due to my boredom. the boredom that accumulates when there is a lack of job and a lack of other things to do.
but i have an interview on friday. my potential boss already told me i was fired...so it's not looking so good.
if i got this job i'd be waking up at like 6 and picking up boxes. physical activity is good.
paper soldiers is playing in new york on saturday. though the people are being some japs and aren't paying us the 800 dollars promised. it'll still be fun...road trip...almost like touring.
my new five year plan is to be on imdb.com. i figure it can't be too hard.
james and i are taking over the world. we've discussed.
i watched network last night. it's an amazing movie. i didn't think a movie could say so much about everything in 2 hours.
something happened. and now i can't remember the beginning of sentences by the time i'm finished them. it must be all the drugs.
the newspaper found me....summer writing....ahhhh.
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| tonight we'll dance, like we're in love |
[23 Feb 2005|02:27pm] |
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i enjoy college. very much.
look at peter's face. just look at it. HEHEHE.
this picture is from the night of 19 40's. they wedgied my boxers off of me. and then i ran around without any pants on for awhile. kerry came up that night. it was pretty awesome. there is now a facebook fan club dedicated to me. we officially brought wild bill into delta.
so we started a fake fraternity. we were at a frat party making triangles and holding them over our head and yelling "delta." the frat guys got mad, it was great.
my hall director has seen my penis. here's the story: so dirty mike finds big justin's phone in the hallway and i take a picture of my wee wee with it and set it as the background. then dirty puts it back in the hallway where he found it. then when justin is trying to find his phone he calls it and the hall director picks up. so she's seen my dick.
i also got promoted to assistant arts editor at the paper. it's sweeeet.
i'm also in a band now. i play bass with mark halpern and peter rosenfelder and two other guys. we play something between weezer, modest mouse, and the shins. our name is paper soldiers, i think. i'm not the biggest fan of the name, but i can deal. come see us play at college perk march 5th at 9 pm. i can't promise good yet. but future shows will be good. we are pretty damn awesome, i'm so surprised.
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[15 Jan 2005|11:30pm] |
i'm copying matt cause i have a crush on him.
january: i have a bruise the shape of my wallet on my ass, from getting hit by a car from about seven different angles.
february: today my dad cried because he bought crickets from the pet store and left them in the car and they all froze to death.
march: he handed it to me in a hand basket.
april: after watching short circuit 2, i've realized johnny 5 is obviously symbolic for jesus christ.
may: they rang the doorbell and i took off my pants.
june: my skin is red and i just drank a beer.
july: we'll feed you.
august: dennis lives with a man named wayne who thinks he is playing in the wimbleton open next week, every week.
september: i went to the gym yesterday and now my boobs hurt a little.
october: being bent over naked is funny.
november: he has a goatee and a girlfriend.
december: the best part by far is when he got everybody to shut up, it got real quiet, and he goes, "alright, look, i know someone in the quad has a sword."
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[10 Jan 2005|05:21am] |
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[13 Dec 2004|08:39pm] |
i have a new life goal...
you know when you google your name, and you want to see if the results that come up are actually you. well i am currently the 4th result in that search. i hope to one day become the first result. wouldn't that mean i'm the most famous andrew payton in the world? if i was the most famous andrew payton in history, (cause i mean, everything is on the internet) that i would officially own my name. and i think i should own my name. this should be all of your goals. good luck if your name is normal. from what i can tell, other andrew paytons include: the first character to die in saving private ryan, a fictional character from some novel, and the CEO of some company. but i am going to beat all of them. i will win my name back. this one's for you mom.
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[09 Dec 2004|07:54pm] |
yesterday my quad had a meeting to discuss the charges of vandalism against us, that was fun. it was pretty much our ra reading off a list of all the shit we've done wrong and us going.."good times..." the best part by far is when he got everybody to shut up, it got real quiet, and he goes, "alright, look, i know someone in the quad has a sword." he also had complaints about the smashed pumpkins and peanut butter on the wall.
i put a giant hole in the wall, this partly inspired the charges of vandalism, and the meeting. that bitch is gonna cost me 400 big ones. but at least i got off my alcohol charge.
the meeting for my alcohol violation was awesome, horrible, but awesome.
hall director: "explain to me why, if no one was drinking while you were in the room, the room stilled smelled like alcohol three hours after you were there?"
me: "honestly, i don't have a sense of smell"
last night my roomate broke our doorknob off our room door.
i had my last class today, besides finals. i can't wait to be done with this semester.
i'm tired of my scene for acting. who thought making out would become so grueling.
on monday, i'm making a presentation in my music class on kenny savercool. i quoted kenny savercool in a paper. that's kind of funny. it's either on him, or this awesome brazilian band from the 60's....that's different.
inspired by my excitement to see closer, the aviator, and life aquatic, and nate's lj here are my favorite movies of the years o far:
dogville
eternal sunshine of the spotless
kill bill vol. 2
sideways
garden state
i heart huckabees
bright young things
ray (sort of)
spiderman 2 (sort of)
i've heard good things about the aviator...leo dicaprio is supposed to be good, and so is cate blanchette. i adore scorsese...ahhh...
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[25 Nov 2004|08:48pm] |
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i forgot that everyday holiday brought with it this conservative nonsense talk.
"methodists think homosexuality is ok!"
"michael moore is a millionaire and can't afford a haircut or a diet"
"catholics are only ok when abortion, because without the children, the parents can donate more money."
i knew my granddad was an obstinate conservative. but i thought my endless debates with my mom about homosexuality had started to sink in. i think i've finally got her ready to admit that dinosaurs existed. i just don't see how you can refute their existence. she says that scientists put the bones together in the ground from other animals then pretended to discover them. why? why would anyone do that? and i don't even know where to begin with homosexuality. she's never met a gay person in her life. my grandfather got on me, and we debated bowling for columbine and fahrenheit 9/11, even though he's NEVER SEEN THEM. i think tonight i'm going to watch celsius 9:11, the republican rebuttal to fahrenheit. it will be interesting.
i love my family but they are just conservative for the sake of being conservative.
"i think charlie sheen is one of the most brilliant actors there are, but his politics are horrible. i only like moves with tom selleck, he is just so cute... and looks like such a nice conservative guy."
my dad would be a democrat if my mom let him, in fact he used to be. she made him switch when they got married.
"you don't like that band?"
"no"
"yeah, what are they, just liberal and loud?"
"no, they're just bad."
"they're probably liberal."
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| there's no simple way to stop the sadness |
[25 Nov 2004|06:14am] |
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In front of their TV and thinkin'
What is wrong with me? I'm not a monster
Why won't anybody fuck me
I don't wanna live life lonely
Why does everyone have to be perfect?
why can't i sleep here? maybe it's the monsters under my bed. maybe it's the x-box luring me into another game. i started a football season with towson. and i'm the quarter back. and jeff is the wide receiver. and james is another receiver. and last game, jeff and i both broke ncaa records. we're real good.
saw finding neverland tonight. it was pretty good, not great. if johnny depp gets nominated, he doesn't really deserve it. he wasn't bad at all, i just don't think he brought a lot into the character, which could have potential been great. there were some really good parts, worth seeing definitely. but eh. i also saw the polar express last night, if i was 7 it would have been awesome. movies left to see:
sideways
alexander (heard it sucked, but i don't care)
kinsey
the aviator (not out yet)
life aquatic with steve zissou (not out yet)
i think i'm going to see alexander tomorrow. mostly i'm really excited about this movie, since i know so much random crap about alexander the great because of my ancient civilizations class. i think i'm gonna take a class called alexander the great soon. i like ancient history, cause it doesn't make sense to me how they lived.
i like the shins.
friday, football.
why the fuck do i update this shit? i think i'm gonna stop...maybe.
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| i gotta lotta things to say but it's getting late |
[22 Nov 2004|01:05pm] |
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so i got written up the other night for drinking. well, i don't necessarily know if it was for drinking. but we were being loud in a room with alcohol, i wasn't drunk, and i hadn't really been drinking. so in some ways i wish i had gotten in trouble for something i actually did. but i was with brian, and he's on probation, so i hope it's all ok.
i got a scene in my acting class from the shape of things, and it's my final. and i have to kiss this girl for it. it's funny when we were rehearsing, it was much more comfortable to kiss a complete stranger than it was to like, touch her or pretend or cuddle or whatever you want to call it. i guess cause kissing is in the script so all the other stuff seems like it is uneccessary. our teacher is probably a perv, making everybody make out in front of the class.
i had four reviews in the paper today. i win my new record.
for some reason, even though i go home a lot, i'm excited to go home for thanksgiving. i am going to see: brendan, emily, anna, joanna, maybe more. but that's my list of people i won't forget to call.
i saw brendan yesterday and it was amazing. he has a goatee and a girlfriend. and he drinks beer. who doesn't drink that in college?
ok...to class...soon.
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[17 Nov 2004|06:04pm] |
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fucking download the band if you can. this girl tara gave me their cd, and it is so fucking good. i love music so much right now. elefant sounds a lot like the cure, newer, and rockier, but still, like the cure.
here is my official schedule:
monday-wednesday
intro to electronic media 11-12:15
mathematical ideas 12:30-1:45
filmmaking 1: basic 16 MM production 2-3:15
tuesday-thursday
honors script analysis 9:30-10:45
american national government 11-12:15
honors writing seminar 2-3:15
i didn't get history of rock n' roll or sociology. but this should work anyway. i think i've decided to double major in journalism. it doesn't seem like it will be that hard.
today registering was like a race to get the classes you want. it was kind of intense.
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[13 Nov 2004|05:35pm] |
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i am so fucking bored it's ridiculous.
i am so bored that while i was driving in the car and hit slight traffic i got excited to be able to drive that much longer, because at least while i am in the car i get to listen to music and not be able to predict what song will be next.
i kinda just want to go back to towson.
there's only two things i look foward to in life.
this is one of the worst years of my life. freshman year sucks. college sucks. i'm even doing good in school now. i'm bored at home and bored in college. i come home too much. i don't make friends like i used to.
the white stripes aren't that bad, i'm listening to my sisters music.
i'm gonna write a song.
who knows how to play piano and wants to start a band with me?
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[11 Nov 2004|08:07pm] |
From: Shannon Mort
To: Andrew Payton
Subject: yea...
Message: I read your critique of Eighteen Visions in the Towerlight...and just because something isn't your type of music doesn't mean it sucks. Plus, when you write a critique of something, you should support your arguement...not just make every sentence something negative about the band. And by the way, that cd came out awhile ago. It's not new. I am not pissed just because you didn't like them and they happen to be one of my favorite bands, because if you didn't like them and you backed it up better instead of just saying, "James sounds constipated" maybe I wouldn't care. That's all.
~Shannon~
someone hated something i said so much, she looked me to up to send me this message. that's kind of awesome. awesome.
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yesterday a song me and steve recorded "holy cow" was on the umbc radio during kenny's radio show. that inspired us and we are recording more music this weekend. i've written a bunch of new stuff and i'm so excited to record it. i want to have a girl singer in one of the songs, but i don't know who. cause i can't sing.
i think i picked out my class schedule for next semester:
Introduction to Electronic Media MW 11-12:15
Mathematical Ideas MW 12:30-1:45
Elements and History of Rock Music TTh 8-9:15
Honors Script Analysis TTh 9:30-10:45
Honors Introduction to Sociology 12:30-1:45
Honors Writing Seminar 2-3:15
once again i would have no friday classes. but my tuesdays and thursdays would be draining as shit. and i don't want another 8 AM class, those suck. but it's the only time rock history is offered i think, and i definitely want to take that class.
1-WHERE DO YOU LIVE?
towson, md and lanham, md
2-SEX OR ICE-CREAM?
ice cream is definitely easier for me to get.
3-WHAT COLOR UNDERWEAR ARE YOU WEARING RIGHT NOW?
black with white stripes
4-WHAT ARE YOU DOING RIGHT NOW?
killing time before acting class
5-WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON YOU WENT OUT TO EAT WITH?
jason and bill in the dining hall.
emily duck, melanie, and sabrina at a real restaurant.
6-IF U WERE A TOY, WHAT WOULD YOU BE?
one of those little kid xylophone things
7-WHERE WOULD YOU WANT TO GO ON YOUR HONEYMOON?
i don't really care. as long as it's away somewhere and we have a lot of sex.
8-WHATS YOUR RING TONE?
girls - beastie boys
9-WHAT DO YOU THINK A TOBLERONE IS?
um.
10-WHAT R U WEARING RIGHT NOW?
jeans, sauconys, plaid shirt
11-DO YOU WEAR CONTACTS?
nope.
12-WHAT WAS THE BEST ADVICE EVER GIVEN TO YOU?
you're the only one who thinks you suck - coach rick
13-DO U OWN A VEHICLE?
yeah. but not at school
14-WHAT ARE YOUR FUTURE PLANS?
move to LA, maybe with jeff. maybe by myself.
15-FAVORITE FILM?
raging bull probably
16-LAST FILM YOU SAW AT CINEMA?
ray i think.
18-DO YOU LIKE TO DANCE?
i can't dance. and i don't really like to.
19-ARE YOU TOO SHY TO ASK ANYONE OUT?
yeah, pretty much. i usually just wait till the point when i know they'll say yes.
20-DO YOU SLEEP NAKED?
never have.
21-Christmas or Easter?
Christmas
22-LUST OR LOVE
lust is easier to comprehend. love is probably better
23-KISSES OR HUGS?
hugs
24-WORST FEELING IN THE WORLD?
feeling guilty and not sleeping
25-WORST SOUND?
grinding teeth
26-WHATS THE FIRST THING YOU DO WHEN YOU WAKE UP?
shower
27-ROLLER COASTER, SCARY OR EXCITING?
exciting
28-HOW MANY TIMES DO YOU LET THE PHONE RING BEFORE YOU ANSWER IT?
usually get it as quick as possible
29-ZODIAC SIGN?
don't even know. i think aries?
30-IS THE GLASS HALF EMPTY OR HALF FULL?
empty
31- BEST PHYSICAL FEATURE?
eyes?
32-MILK- WHITE OR CHOCOLATE?
chocolate
33-DAY OR NIGHT?
night
34-SUMMER OR WINTER?
summer
35-CAKE OR PIE?
pie. i hate cake
36-DIAMONDS OR PEARLS?
diamonds. don't matter.
37-SUNRISE OR SUNSET?
sunset
38-HAVE YOU EVER BROKEN A BONE?
yeah. my arm and most of my fingers.
39-DO YOU HATE ANYONE?
not for real.
40-DO YOU BELIEVE IN FIGHTING?
yeah. i'm usually pretty mellow though.
41-WHO DO YOU TURN TO FOR ADVICE?
jeff and james i guess.
42-YOU COULD HAVE ONE SKILL IN LIFE WHAT WOULD IT BE?
mind reading when i wanted too.
43-WHERE ARE YOUR FAVORITE PLACES TO SHOP?
dunno.
44-WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE WEBSITE?
facebook probably
45-WHEN YOU WERE LITTLE WHAT DID YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GREW UP?
an astronaut. until i saw ET and they freaked me out. but i still love ET with everything i got.
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[07 Nov 2004|10:40pm] |
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os mutantes are fucking awesome. if you can, download "meu refrigerador nao funciona" it's their only english song. also "desculpe, babe." the more i listen to this band, the more fucking awesome they get. listen to them.
this weekend has been kinda boring. but a lot about music. james and i spent friday listening to good music. highlights include godspeed you black emperor and pedro the lion. we watched "the big lebowski," it was really good. we also talked about the future. james is one of the best people to have serious talks with, the guy gets stuff. we're both trying to get each other into different music. that night i also went online and bought nick drake's "pink moon," elliot smith's self-titled and ben folds five "whatever & ever amen." next time i'm getting ray charles and buddy holly.
tonight i wanted to rehearse a monologue for my acting class and my roomate was in. i didn't know where to get privacy so i went to the middle of a field. and i yelled and stuff. it was awesome. these girls walked by and made fun of me.
( stole this from lauren )
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| a dying man in a living room |
[04 Nov 2004|07:26pm] |
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"from a basement on a hill," the new elliot smith cd is amazing. absolutely amazing.
i keep getting these e-mails from amazon.com, and they are like "hey, fill out this little survey and will give you 15 dollars!" seriously, it's the best deal, it's almost like i have a job. i got my 3rd one today, and they said two more are coming before december. it's great. last time this happened i bought an os mutantes cd for a class, and it's awesome, i just can't understand what they're saying.
my roomate says my music is some "gay ass shit." but that's ok. his uncle sings "do you believe in magic?" actually that's really fucking cool.
today my alarm went off at 7:30 to wake me up for my 8:00 physics exam. but instead of waking up i just had a dream about being in an alarm clock store. then my roomate got up and turned off my alarm. so just when everything could have gone to hell... into my dream pops deirdre. who tells me that i have to wake up, because i'll fail my class if i don't wake up right now. at first i disagree, but she insists. she is stern, so my head pops up from the pillow and it's 7:40, and i make it. thank you deirdre.
justin likes the kabob where men get there arms stuck in printing presses, so helicopters land in front of my room so they can chop arms off.
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